you were born
as a church
for your mother's old ideals
not given choice
on who to be
just told to
"think and act like me"
you came to be
as a means
to reclaim your tarnished name
not given choice
on how to feel
and with no tools with which to heal
you come to see
the more you stray
the more that you are pushed away
you have not done
what you're demanded
so now you have been left abandoned
you rip the chunks from your head
wishing you were dead
or at least a little bit sedated
make sure the windows are smashed
the paintings are slashed
i don't want the life i'm fated
is this all that there is
i'm not longer a kid
but the world still works the same
but then you notice a plant
beautiful at that
growing up your windowpane
time moves slow
but you watch it grow
through the cracks left in your soul
there's no need to burn
the foundation down
that'll ruin all the growth
you don't have to be a church
you can be a garden
you don't have to be a church
you can just be you
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the wallpapers amazing
i never thought i'd see
something quite like this
but to my surprise
the walls fall down around me
internal bliss
the colors are amazing
i can feel my heartbeat fading
into a chorus of pure hope
but to my surprise
we're all here screaming softly
internal bliss
feel alone so i know i'm not dead yet
i can't wait til we're whole again
if there's something that i'm meant to see
i hope it waits for me
i wanna sleep out in your garden
let the lovely bugs in
the rain will wash me pure
maybe then
i'll grow what i've been missing
internal bliss
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I sincerely hope they full realize how much all of their music means to me, and I imagine many others. This band is special. Not many bands can be this deeply personal to where it can strike a unique chord in me. Im not one that says this about any bands ever but this band has gotten me through a lot. Plus it's inspired how I approach songwriting as well. and I hope that the ones behind the art are trying to maintain a healthy mentality cuz these deeply emotional lyrics must be from a real place KaneSeatHeadrestOfTouringAmmos